Moodswings: The Anti-Chaos Issue [July Issue #1]
July’s Astro & HD Forecast: Cancer Season Is Not Here for Your Plans
First of all, if you feel like a wet paper towel barely holding it together - you’re not broken. You’re just in Cancer season.
Yayyyyy, funsies!
This is the month where our emotional baggage shows up uninvited and says “hey beaut, can I pull you for a chat?” Love Island style.
Cancer is all about the emotional body, the ancestral archive, the inner child with mummy and/or daddy issues (extra points if you have both like I do), and whatever unresolved feelings you didn’t schedule time for this week.
Let me tell you first hand, it’s not going to feel like progress. It’s going to feel like processing. Or a possession. I mean, either feels appropriate right now.
Nervous System Notes:
If you’re finding your identity blurry right now, same.
Pluto is retrograding through my rising sign (Scorpio, naturally) and Saturn is still dragging its ass through Pisces. This is slow-burn transformation. The kind that doesn’t tell you it’s coming for a 4 week stay. The kind that creeps in and leaves you wondering when it’s gonna stay paying rent, because, rude.
Expect tears. (I mean, this is normal for me, but like—even more).
Expect weird dreams.
Expect a sudden urge to cancel all plans and cocoon under a spooky season blanket, even though it’s July. If you’re an introvert or neuro spicy then this won’t sound like new news, but it’s just taken up a level. I had to ask my husband to go to the supermarket for me on Sunday because I didn’t want anyone to look at me.
This is our body trying to make sense of the quiet after decades of noise.
It’s weird. It’s confusing. And no, it doesn’t come with a checklist or an aesthetic journal prompt. [But maybe I could make one? That defeats the point, Maria]
Human Design Gates to Watch:
This month’s transits are basically the universe poking your soft spots with a stick. Some are helpful. Some are just rude.
Gate 39 (Provocation) & Gate 38 (The Fighter) — You will get irritated. Someone will test your patience. Decide if it’s a worthy battle or just a Tuesday in July.
Gate 53 (Beginnings) & Gate 54 (Ambition) — That urge to start something shiny and new? Double check it’s not a distraction disguised as productivity. Are you doing it because you genuinely want to (and would even if no one saw it), or is it ego validation to prove yourself in some way?
Gate 62 (Details) & Gate 61 (Mystery) — Your brain wants facts. Your body wants faith that it’s all gonna work out in your best interest. Neither are wrong, but good luck getting them to agree. HILARIOUSLY enough, both of these gates are in my Incarnation Cross in my design Sun and Earth.
Gate 56 (Storytelling) & Gate 60 (Limitation) — You’ll want to talk about it all. But your energy might say, “Nah.” Say less. If the urge to get everything perfect rolls around, ask yourself how you can use your current challenges to your advantage to do it differently.
Gate 31 (Leadership) & Gate 41 (Imagination) — Vision is building, but you’re not supposed to run with it yet. Think “Pinterest moodboard,” not “12-step launch plan.”
Gate 33 (Privacy) & Gate 19 (Attunement) — You’ll feel who’s aligned and who’s just… energetically (or quite literally) nosy. Privacy is power. Use it. I’ve had people lately watching my Instagram stories daily, yet ignoring me when they see me in person. That’s the definition of this.
Expression Themes to Lean Into:
Speak from the brain fog. Even if it doesn’t make sense… Especially if it doesn’t make sense.
Not every realisation needs to become content. Some things are just for you.
Crying in Prada is still crying, but it’s more on-brand for July.
The mantra for July:
Your nervous system is recalibrating. Your identity is rearranging itself. And your emotions are loud because they finally feel safe enough to speak.
You’ll feel pulled to act, to fix, to explain. To change there if you’re like me. But July says: rest first. Feel first. Let the chaos cool before you try to “make something of it.”
Maria x
✦ Read the Rest of The Anti-Chaos July Issue #1:
→ Cult Cravings: For the sensory obsessions and secret comforts we romanticise our survival with
→ Note to Self: The emotional fog between burnout and clarity, written in real time
→ Dead Honest: No fluff. No filler. Just the truth you’re too tired to dress up
→ Moodswings: July’s emotional forecast (spoiler: you’re not actually losing it)
→ Directors Cut: When the dream comes true but doesn’t feel like you thought it would
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